Read and Not See

kalnotype.

       dried
              valiostype.



                            hungerwaden.






         I tried.
                They read.





             gurglenonsense.


          vurd.
                   heard.


                                gurd.



                                                    Jamalyee.


                  

Once Upon a Bladder

                 I Need To, Pee.



                          Funny feeling resides inside mon bladder.



      I gotta go.

           Yet, I hold the piss within the squishy cavity.


                             Forgetmenot,
                                            it pleads.


                  Yet The Pee

                            is forgotten. 

Morning Mouth

Waves
          , temporal ,


          yet just.

                     


                         Crash against

                             some
                                          .   ..

               
               ...Hectic.




                                Rationalize
                                            the
                                                      irRational.

smoke that dope

smoke
               that


         dope.



     you gots it.

                        ...inhale.



num. 

postmortem

Blood drips from 

my temple. 

I crashed. 

The tires spin. 

The body moans. 

My heart, 

sighs

in relief. 

Please, 

Please, 

be done. 

 I AM FINISHED. 

nothingness. 

eyes, wide-awake 

as ever. 

I am dead, 

I am not here, 

my body is gone. 

yet,

my mind wanders 

the realms. 

CRAP.

Why can't I just be gone?!?! 

I thought death was death 

and once bloody and gone

so was the soul.

SHIT NIGGA . 

I AM STILL ALIVE.

roaming. 

wandering. 

It is even worse than before, 

because 

now-

 I 

cannot

touch 

anything. 

I am here. 

Yet, no one knows. 

I am finally literally invisible. 

death took one more away from me.

kindness is an understatement.

                        fairness.



           unfairness.
                              Bitter
                                       Sweet.




              Live to love-


and love to live.


                                  it's a cycle

           only to be broken by and when 

death arrives. 

        Oh mortality! 

                   how art thou such a fowl temptress. 

                                One gains the companionship of another life 

                                                  and BAM! 

                                                       gone, in this life, 

                                                                for now. 

                 Despicable. 

                  

hell hole>

aUDAC ITY,

presents itself

in the form of a spritely human. 

shut UP! 

              I am trYING! 

                   thoughts too long. 

                       thoughts too many. 

  thoughts too deep. 

thoughts too short. 

                    thoughts. 

                                 THOUGHTS.

untitled like my emotions.

i TRED


   to drown.


          to be

               a monster.












OH,


          I
               AM



                       a monster. 

blahhhing about and complaining in short spurts.

simplicity is never an option in this life.
not for me,
not for anyone,
really.

emotions are most likely
the worst part
of this thing called life.

too many emotions.
too many reactions.
confusion,
dissipation,
attraction,
betrayal.

it is hard to really feel
after a while.

walk away.

from what?
and toward what?

walk away,
walk away.

ease will come with this notion.

meeehhhish

nothingness.

that is all life seems to be.

a ball of nothingness.

                                  I thought it may be grand at one singular point.


                                        I was wrong as can be.



            tar. tar. tar.

                         take me to another
                               bar. bar. bar.