a thought on you

why am I so obsessed with you? can I not keep my lips parted from yours but more than a moment? oh, the embarrassment I feel around you...I cannot help myself but be drawn toward you-if I try to stop my heart collapses and I fall limp, unable to move. you keep me motivated to live, am I becoming too attached too soon? 

oh God, please don't let me ruin this one, I plead to you, let him be the One, for I am so enraptured with love I feel if we separate, I shall never fully recover. even the thought of our love ending pains my heart, I feel strings tightening and tears welling inside my chest. however, I do think I need to take it down a notch, I do not want to drive away the one man I actually love, he is the only thing in my life I feel like I truly love. not brotherly love, not infatuation, but something much deeper is coursing through my being- I care about his well being, I put him before me, I am attracted to every aspect of his mind and body, and our differences make us more likely to last. oh, how I love this boy, he is my darling, the one I've always been searching for and happened to find at the age of twenty. right now, I feel like the luckiest woman in the world...I just hope beyond hope that it lasts. 

Combine

I have an idea,

An inkling, you could say

To love you each and every day,

I see flowers in your eyes

And fire in your soul,

I long to explore this strange land

With my two hands,

Your mountains of skin

Are rigid and wonderful,

Thine lips like rosebuds-

Soft and gentle,

I have delved in so far

It feels as if I and you, have flown into space,

Where Newton’s Laws no longer apply,

We lily along the color spectrum,

Around galactic vortexes,

Through the stars of time-

Souls mold into one once again,

Freedom at last! 

The World Beneath Which We Reside

Looking past all known
Oblivion is recognized
Beneath the layers of
Spiteful souls-
Remember this world,
Apart from what has
Always been taught-
A world of love,
Draped in peace,
A world only few experience
In the midst of war,
Found by accident,
Yet harbored by heart;

Live in bliss
Young children of Eden,
Go forth to this
Forgotten land,
Where the brave lay at rest
And the lovers linger,
Happily carefree in this
Underworld of glory.

Heartbreak Cake

i

Ingredients out and ready,

I am baking a cake

For my dearest,

Made with my heart and sweat

And nothing less.

ii

Set oven to 350 degrees.

3 eggs,

2 cups of flour,

2 teaspoon of baking soda,

1 teaspoon of salt,

1 teaspoon of vanilla,

1 pig's heart,

3 tablespoons of sweat.

Blend dry and liquid ingredients

(leave out the heart for now)

until there are no lumps.

iii

Pour into round cake pan,

Put into the oven,

Bake for 45 minutes.

iv

Remove baked cake and

Let cool for 15 minutes.

After cooling,

Cut a circle half way down

The middle of the cake,

Gently place pig's heart,

Which should still be fully intact,

Inside the whole and

Cover with a thin layer of cake.

v

Repeat the following words

While sprinkling cinnamon

On the bare cake:

"Eat this and be a slave

To every lonely woman's cave,

Since you are an evil soul

You shall eat a pig's heart,

Cry for hours and die alone

As your toll."

vi

Frost and serve to

Ex-boyfriend.